Metal Mummy

It’s still a bit strange when you think of Mother’s Day and realise it’s a day for you now as well. Well, I do anyway. I still don’t think I qualify as someone to celebrate really. It’s still a bit new to me.

But, it was a lovely day. Freyja bought me a lovely card that Daddy helped her to write. She even wrote her name – with a little help of course… She also bought me a lovely candle and a CD that is fantastic – I was listening to it on the way to and the way back from work and it’s awesome. Thank you Freyja.

We went for lunch at a lovely little pub near where we live and it was lovely food. Freyja was as good as gold and ate like a horse. I was absolutely stuffed by the time I finished, so had a nap before I had to go to work at 5. Lovely day.

That’s not the point of this post though. This post is really about my mum. You see, I was a crap crap daughter yesterday. All I had to do was call my mum and wish her a Happy Mothers Day, but I didn’t. Before I knew what had happened to the day, it was 1am and the day had ended. I was thoughtless. So very thoughtless and for that, I can only apologise.

I’ve been swearing to myself about it all morning. All I had to do was pick up the fucking phone and I didn’t. I feel awful and I know she’s disappointed and hurt, and I completely understand why.

If you read this mum, I’m so sorry. It doesn’t take anything away from how much I love you. You mean the world to me, and you’re an inspiration. If I turn out to be half the mum you are, I’ll be happy. You’ve been there through thick and thin, and have always stood by me. You’ve always been there when I needed you – when I needed a shoulder to cry on, when I needed advice or when I needed a really big hug. You make me laugh and you’re my best friend. You’re a beautiful person and I love you with all my heart.

I’m sorry my carelessness and my thoughtlessness yesterday doesn’t reflect how much you mean to me. I am so so sorry.